+ 1 - 0 | § ¶from last week....
Diana is married! There is the only pic I have of her as a bride!!! I didn't take any pictures at her wedding, if you can believe it!!! Part of it was that I was busy doing other things, part of it was that other people had the bases covered and part of it is that my good camera is on it's very last legs and brings me more disappointment than good pics these days. So, I am preparing to buy a new camera! Yay! I will spend more than I probably need to, and it will have more features than necessary, but since taking pictures is one of those things that is good for my soul, I'm willing to splurge a little. So, hopefully by early fall I will be posting beautiful pictures again.
+ 1 - 0 | § ¶time to slow down
So far, this summer has been pretty busy. It's been fun, but is just flying by too quickly. It's now time to slow down, take a breath and just enjoy the summer a bit. I hope to catch many more beautiful sunsets over a lake in the weeks to come!
+ 1 - 1 | § ¶change
There is a lot of change in my life these days. Typically, I don't hate change nearly as much as some people. I even tend to thrive on it on occasion. But right now? There seems to be too much at once and It's tearing me apart a little bit. My job is changing. A lot. While it will offer new challenges and experiences, it is completely scary and a part of me wishes it could just stay the same. A dear friend/mentor (Brad, pictured above) finished up his last day at WW last week. Perhaps we will keep in touch, but I know that the daily doses of laughter, wisdom and good conversation are a thing of the past. Another dear friend, Diana, is getting married this coming weekend. I'm truly excited for her and plan to continue to be a part of her life, even as she moves in a new direction. And realistically, our relationship has been undergoing change since she began dating Barkley. But the finality of her actual wedding just adds a dimension to the truth of change that I can't ignore. These are things hitting all at once...each on their own isn't earthshattering. Even together they aren't. But there's another aspect playing out here too.
I guess underlying it all is the knowledge that every day is a new day without my brother. There are so many "firsts" without him. I've missed him at so many family events recently. That change is the hardest to take. People say that the first year is the most difficult. I hope so. I can't imagine that it will get easier, though I should know from experience that it will. Anyway, change is a big theme in my life right now. Change and loss. But I know I'm not alone in this...and for that, I'm thankful.